Currently Listening Hotel California By Eagles see related

didnt go to school yesterday, to practice, or to the meet. so i thought we had normal practice today apparently not because noone from clements was there at 530AM so i called sharlee twice and i mean if we didnt have practice then i can understand why she didnt pick up so im really hoping practice wasnt at 6 ughh i need to be more responsible

got all my atlanta pictures back, great times

not so sure anymore if im going again at the end of the month, due to the fact that my parents dont wanna pay for my ticket. can you say gayness?

i think i have a disorder..a sleeping disorder i cant ever get to beddddd! maybe its all the dr. pepper im addicted to?

i wish i could erase my memories like in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, even though id forget all the good times id atleast forget it all and not be in the position that i am in now

on a lighter note i just got a call back from sharlee no practice today woot woot but i have it once again tomorrow, then friday, and saturday JOY

if you cant read the sticker on samir's face its says: NO PICKLE hahaha

people, correction the COOL people

paparrazzi!

center court biznitch

our inner childhoodness, you know you what some!

my oh my the wind

i have a bunch more just too lazy to put them all up!

eid mubarak to all the brown folks who read this!

<33 tasha.

Currently Listening Heard Em Say Pt.1 By Kanye (Ft Adam Levine) West see related

all i have to say is FUCK you.

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yes i know...what a horrible entry but alot of things were just going through my head and i dont know i had to let it out

*HIGHLIGHTS OF '05*

atl chicago and cap

toronto didar was amazing

2days in atl with raabs before leaving for AU

AU camp 2**

dallas turkey fest

and ATL for christmas

*RESOLUTIONS FOR '06*

def go to khane and morning khane more often

get closer to people i have lost touch with

im tired of this nothing serious at all bs i want something REAL

bring grades up having a GPA over a 5.0

find a college i really want to go to

realize what i want to do in life

meet knew people atleast 20

get my permit! and LICENSE

be a better person...forgive and move on

lifeguard training

get more in shape

and have a better relationship with him

* hopefully this year will be better than the last, im not saying '05 was bad but it couldve been better, it had its ups and downs

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odd picture! taken at the partyyyy

sexyy ladiesss at the topp eh

bonitaaaaaaa!

lakhani panjwani khoja ahahah

hmm so noones really looking at the camera here besides me and the rahims

hahah sahir looks highhhh

* more pictures to come laterrrrrrr <33

I tell myself I don't care

when in reality, I do. I care more than any person in the world can ever care, but the difference is they're not stuck by themselves. I am.  I'm hurt, I'm sad, I feel abandoned, I feel sweet talked, I feel lied to, I feel as if I'm not good enough, I feel inferior. I always tell myself, someday it'll be set straight and everything will be okay.  I know that you don't deserve me for all the pain you've caused me, but I can't help but to still love you.  When I'm with you I never want to leave, I just want to be in your arms forever; that feeling has never gone away, when I've been hoping and telling myself it would.  I want happiness to come into my life. I feel I can't be myself around everyone anymore, because I don't even know who I am anymore.  I question myself constantly and feel like I will never be good enough for you, and it saddens me to know that no matter how much I care and put myself out there for you, you will never want me there. You say I mean something to you, but in reality I know you're just saying that not to hurt my feelings.  You say you could never forget me, but I know someday you will.  And in that someday, I'll still be thinking of you.  I'll never be able to forget you...how could I? I love you.

Currently Listening Unwritten By Natasha Bedingfield see related

well intially i was planning on putting this picture up that shafeeq made and it is wonderful!

so count down starts until i go to atl!...still have no idea what im doing for new years though...haha hmm how about a kiss at midnight?!

exams frighten me

i feel extremely horrible..i feel like i'm a horrible person because i've been slacking off a little too much lazy and these last 2 weeks have been so HECTIC i havent been to a swim practice in like two weeks...i know its horrible and im a bad person....and seriously like half the time i go and we apparently don't have practice that day, and we've had alot of days off lately, but then there was this one day i was like 45 minutes late...yes i know but you cant forget i have to wake up at 445 every morning to go swim...so its kinda hard doing it everyday without being late sometimes... and plus im going ot be in atl the whole break so ill be missing a ton of practice...goshhh im stuck in a hole that just getting bigger and bigger.

i drove on university the other day!!! it was soo excitinggggggggg!

need to start doing yes hours!

i miss raabia alot. like whenever i didn;t have anyone to talk to about you know what she would always be there for me because she went through what i was going through, i know she's having a great time in kyrgyzstan and i definately can't wait til i get a chance to go visit her and see her new life, and i'm just glad i still have maria! haha she's always a fun person to be around and whitney of course!

i hope everyone has a great time over the holidays!

and have a happy chrismakkah!

<33 tashhhh

hahah you know you want some of that!